So I just recently got back from a Biochemistry midterm… trust me it’s much worse than it even sounds.  It’s roughly 40% of my grade and I have been studying nonstop over the past week.  I’m so happy that it is over, but am still in shock from it’s aftermath.  I think I did well, but then again there were something I had no idea about, so I’m torn between being cocky or being pessimistic.  Right now the pessimism is set in, but it will hopefully fade soon.

I hate the fact that this class is my major and is such a struggle.  it isn’t just for me, but I still feel like if I chose a major than the classes in that major should come naturally to me, right?  Or at least with little effort, but this consumes every ounce of my energy just to pull off a C or a B.  I remember in high school I never even tried in Chemistry and Biology and was at the top of the class, and now I feel like I’m in this whirlind.  I keep asking mself “What if I fail?   Will I change my major?  Will I take it again to see if I can do better?  How will this impact Med School?”  I’m hoping it is just my nerves talking and that everything will be okay.

On a positive note though towards Biochemistry, I have a new professor for the second half and he seems A LOT better than the first.  he actually explains the stuff to us and makes us try out examples in class.  I’m actually excited to learn what he has in store for us next.  This makes me think though that I have chosen the right major and that it was just my professor all along that was confusing me.  The only issue is I hate to throw the blame on someone else when it really is my own actions that are resulting in my grades.  i suppose only time will tell whether I was cut out to be a Biochem major, whether this new professor will turn my world in Biochem around, and whether or not I failed my midterm!